Renovations

I have been struggling with an issue for a while about this whole “blog” thing. I have called it Unaccounted For, So Far for a reason. I feel I should have accomplished more with my life by this point, that I still have things to do.

Yes, I am a mother, and I worked hard at raising my kids to be adults who have good values and I am very proud of them. I have worked hard to be a wife that is loving and supportive to my husband. I was a good daughter who helped my parents with the unexpected crises and struggles that came during their declining years. I helped them to remain independent for as long as they safely could. I helped them ease into their final days with sensitivity and love so that they would meet God and join each other and their other loved ones again. I am not saying that I was perfect at any of these, but I tried hard.

I Can't Find My Blog

I have avoided it for as long as I can.  I have set up special spaces in the house.  Moved those spaces.  Filled them with all my little chotzkes to make the space perfect.  I found the perfect chair, that didn't turn out to be perfect.  Found another chair.  It still isn't comfortably perfect.  Found the perfect pens-Pilot V7 rolling ball, fine point, blue.  The perfect paper.  Yellow pads from Costco with heavy cardboard back.  Sams doesn't have the heavy cardboard back.  I have filled notebooks with quotes.  Read inspirational materials to help me get ready.  I even set up a beautiful blog page with a perfect title, Unaccounted For, So Far.  It has a beautiful background with Cherry Blossoms on it.  It is perfect.  I have every office supply that I could ever need.  I was finally ready.  I had talked about it.  I had planned for it.  I had it all set...